Sometimes I do suspect, I’m a actor in a well-scripted live divine comedy…

I know what Shing02 means when he says that, and I agree with him. I believe that there is some greater entity, this “divine” force that is enjoying my screw-ups and misfortunes, and finding humor with every fault. My life is “well-scripted”. It’s like this divine entity wrote my entire life with the intention of laughing at my tragedies. 

I can’t even explain some of the shit in my life. I’m a hopeless romantic, and whenever I feel a connection with someone, they either try to distance themselves from me, or they find some bullshit excuse. I don’t know. I recently suffered this, and it went a little like this; I professed my love for this girl, but she disregarded. A while later, she confessed that she had a “crush” on me. Over the course of a few weeks, we flirted, conversed daily until early in the morning. I honestly thought she felt something, too, but unfortunately, this was not the case. When I tried to further this relationship, she told me I “misunderstood,” and that this was “the way [she] talks to everyone”. ORLY?! You flirt with everyone and talk to them on the phone for hours on end?! You tell everyone you have a crush on them?! I don’t know. I guess that’s how some people are. They lead you on and leave you hanging.

You feel me? That’s why I feel like my life is so fucked up. I meet someone whom I believe understands me, and in turn, she doesn’t  at all, but just maintains this facade. I wish people wouldn’t be so confusing and ambiguous. =.=